STILL #5

We've been in Mexico for the past week which was a wonderful way for us to unwind and relax. Since we were out of the country we were unable to ask for an update last week and we had very high hopes for moving up the list while we were away. We seem to have good luck while we're out of the country. Two years ago while we were in the Dominican Republic, we sold our town house. A few weeks after that trip we left for Korea and while there, we were able to finalize the purchase of our current home. We had this fantasy that we would be able to say "While we were in Mexico, we received the referral of our first child!". Things didn't work out that way though, and we're disappointed to say the least. As of today, we are still #5, as there have been no new referrals since the last time we checked in. This wait is getting painful. It is getting harder and harder to walk by the nursery each day and not see a baby in it. We both go to sleep each night wondering where our baby is and who is taking care of him. Although we know the Korean foster care system is top notch, we desperately want to be the Mom and Dad to tuck him in each night and wake up (probably many times!) for feedings in the rocking chair. Neither of us had any idea that waiting in adoption would be so difficult. Many people have compared this waiting period to 9 months of pregnancy. We assure you though, it is actually quite different. A pregnant woman KNOWS that in just 9 months she will be the one to hold her baby. We on the other hand, entered into adoption with "no guarentee" timeline and the wait is starting to drive us both crazy.